But the reality was a lot tougher than I imagined. There were days when the waves were huge & stormy (and everyone else was just watching from the safety of their cars), there were days when the waves were so small I had to drive around half the day looking for something, anything, that I could ride, there were shark alerts and injuries. And if I’m super honest, there were days when the stuff I was going through was threatening to pull me under (I think I teetered on the edge of depression for a while there — and it was a scary place to be), so the idea of hopping out of bed and going for a surf felt like an almighty mission.
Seven ways to side-step your burn out
The last 3 weeks, since I got home, have been a little crazy, to say the least. So much so, that about 10 days ago I had that sinking feeling that I was about to get super sick. I felt like I was dangerously close to burning out. My brain was telling me to push on through but my body was done & dusted. I spent 2 days working from bed (with multiple nap breaks haha) and realised I needed to make some serious changes.
Airport updates
I'm sitting here dreaming about the hot shower I'm going to have the moment I walk in the door. The laundry I can do. The dinner that I'll cook tonight and the beautiful realisation that I've got zero travel plans for the next 2 months.
Truth be told? I'm pretty damn exhausted. It's been a crazy year (in a good way) and I'm ready to slow things down a bit. The hustle is real and it's definitely not sustainable 24/7 (no matter how hard I try haha).
Let's talk about fear
After the movie screening, Chris & I sat up late talking about it all. And I realised that because he’s dealing with legitimate fear on a regular basis, he just doesn’t have much energy for the fake stuff. That’s not to say he doesn’t have it (although I did have to double check haha), but more than fake fear seems so much less significant and so doesn’t have as much control over him.
Be willing to throw it all away
For all my non-conformists
You see, up until that time, I had life pretty much mapped out (haha, or at least I thought I did). I was running a business that I assumed was going to be a lifelong career, I was in a relationship that I assumed was going to last forever and I had a neat little plan of how everything would unfold for me.
And when it all fell apart (in a pretty spectacular fashion) I was left dealing with 2 things. The pain caused by all the chaos, and the bonus pain caused by the complete void left in my life where all my well-laid plans used to be.
Suddenly it felt like I was peering into a big black hole of nothingness.
Thoughts on following your bliss
Often people mistake Campbell’s words ‘Follow your bliss’ to mean that you should just do the fun stuff. But in reality, the fun stuff and the stuff that lights you up can look quite different. Don’t get me wrong, I’m having a great time, but following your bliss is not always the easiest option. It is, quite often, the scariest option. The option that requires immense courage.
Reflecting in Indonesia: 5 business lessons from the last 5 months
So I’m sitting here at a surf camp in the middle of the jungle in Java. My arms are aching from this morning’s surf, my belly is full of the banana pancakes I had at breakfast and I’m hanging out with a super nice bunch of surfers from all over the planet.
In short, life is pretty damned good right now. Days like these make me wanna press pause. Because seriously? This is as good as it gets.
The tide is too low to surf right now so we’re all kicking back and soaking this awesomeness in.